the prayer

philipphines top 10 in mr international 2015

Location: Manila

Number of candidates: 36

Pageant date: Nov 30,02015 

Pageant edition: 10th

Placement: Top 10

Congratulations  Reniel Villareal for reaching top 10 . Congratulations to us the Philippines!!!

philipphines is first runner up in ms intercontinental 2015

Location: Magdeburg, Germany

Number of candidates: 66

Pageant date: December 18, 2015

Pageant edition: 44th

Placement: 1rst Runner Up

Congratulations Christi Lynn McGarry for finishing first runner up. Congratulations to us the Philippines!!!

these are special times ( 1998 )

oh holy night

o come all ye faithful

miss universe 2015

I really have mixed emotions about this year's Miss Universe. When Miss Colombia's name was called as the winner I almost fainted. I swore I don't ever wanna see another Miss Universe pageant. The result is unacceptable. A few moments as I'm about to close the Television the host announced that there has been a mistake.

What an incredible twist. The worst prank ever. I felt really bad for Colombia. But after seeing some footages it revealed the nasty truth about pageants.

Kung Colombia ang nanalo Filipino Miss Universe Fans will bash about it non-stop until Miss Universe is nothing but a hoax. I strongly believe that a big part ng fan base ng Miss Universe ay tayong mga pinoy. Naniniwala rin ako na kaya nag-crash yung voting site ay dahil sa ating mga pinoy. I don't really get na yung mga candidates ang pinaboto kung sino ang tatanghaling miss Universe. Ano to Miss Universe Congeniality contest?

Pia worked really hard for the crown, joining Binibining Pilipinas 3 times before finally winning. She even have her 3 notebooks for review until the very last part.

No one can deny her elegance, confidence and grace under pressure.

Clearly she aced the pageant. She even nailed the answers sa Q.A.

The most equipped candidate. Beauty and brains. The overall package!!!

Pia, thank you for finally bringing home the crown after 42 years. Binibining Pilipinas has done an incredible job ever since Venus Raj  won in 2010.

I am expecting our 4rth Miss Universe crown next year!

don't save it all for christmas day ( 1998 )

miss universe 2015 is philipphines!!!!

Location:  Las Vegas, Nevada USA

Number of candidates: 80

Pageant date: Dec 20, 2015

Pageant edition:  64th

Placement: Winner

I'm speechless!!!

The live voting site has crashed. I believe that us Filipinos is the cause of this to show our support to our candidate. LoL

At last after 42 years. We are proud of you Pia. Thank you for bringing home the crown!!!

miss philippines top 11 in miss world 2015

Location:  Sanya, China

Number of candidates: 114

Pageant date: December 19, 2015

Pageant edition:  65th

Placement:  Top 11

Congratulations Hillarie Danielle Parungao for finishing as one of the top 11. Congratulations to us the Philippines!!!

i'm your angel

then you look at me ( 1999 )

be the man ( japanese version )

philippines wins first runner up in miss heritage 2015

Location: South Africa

Number of candidates: 72

Pageant date: November 15, 2015

Pageant edition: 3rd 

Placement: First Runner up

Congratulations Daziella Gange for finishing first runner up. Congratulations to us the Philippines!!!

Last year we one our first ever miss heritage crown

if walls could talk ( 1999 )

all the way ( 1999 )

the first time ever i saw your face ( 1999 )

i want you to need me ( 1999 )

miss philippines top 20 in miss supranational 2015

Congratulations Rogelie Cataculan for finishing in the top 20  Miss Supranational 2015.

thats the way it is ( 1999 )

philippines wins miss earth 2015

Congratulations Angelica Ong! Once again congratulations to us the Philippines.

This is amazing a back to back win! Last year we also won. Jamie herrell crowning her.

Wow Amazing. Truly we take pageants seriously.
Pageant held in Vienna Austria.

live ( for the one i love ) ( 1999 )

i knew i love you ( 2007 )

blue christmas ( 1998 )

ziggy ( 1991 )

when i fall in love ( 1993 )

real emotion ( 1993 )

think twice ( 1993 )

everybody's talking my baby down ( 1993 )

next plane out ( 1993 )

only one road ( 1993 )

refuse to dance ( 1993 )

love doesnt ask why ( 1993 )

i remember la ( 1993 )

just walk away ( 1994 )

misled ( 1993 )

the power of love ( 1993 )

the colour of my love ( 1993 )

no living without loving you ( 1993 )

i love you, goodbye ( 1992 )

halfway to heaven ( 1992 )

nothing broken but my heart ( 1992 )

with this tear ( 1993 )

janicel lubina

Congratulations Janicel Lubina for making it sa top 10 ng Miss International 2015

I'm quite disappointed that you didn't win because you deserve to win. Ikaw ang favorite ko sa mga Binibining Pilipinas winners ngayong 2015.

philippines wins miss international queen 2015

Congratulations Trixi Maristela for winning Miss International Queen 2015!
First runner up: Brazil/ 2nd runner up: Thailand

Congratulations to us Filipinos.
Also Congratulations to Francine Garcia and Michelle Binas for Making it to the top 10.
Three filipinos pasok sa top 10. Tatlo silang pambato lahat nakapasok sa top 10.

This is our second win! First win 2012 Kevin Balot.

if i were you ( 1992 )

beauty and the beast ( 1992 )

love can move mountains remix ( 1992 )

unison ( 1990 )

philippines wins 3rd runner up- miss grand international 2015

Congratulations Parul Shah for winning 3rd runner up Miss Grand International 2015

She also won best in National costume.

Congratulations to us The Philippines!!!

philippines wins miss globe 2015

Congratulations Ann Lorraines  M. Colis for winning Miss Globe 2015!

Congratulations to us The Philippines!!!

Pang Miss Universe ang ganda nya!

can't live with you, can't live without you ( 1989 )

voices that care ( 1991 )

if love is out of the question ( 1990-1991 )

délivre moi ( 1991 )

jours de fièvre ( 1987 )

lolita trop jeune pour aimer ( 1987 )

partout je te vois ( 1987 )

je danse dans ma tête ( 1991 )

fais ce que tu voudras ( 1986 )

have a heart ( 1990-1991 )

if there was any other way ( 1990 )

if we could start over again ( 1990 )

with this tear ( 1992-93 )

i'm loving every moment with you ( 1990 )

where does my heartbeat now ( 1990 )

granade O' connor

Hi,

Gusto ko lang mag appologize sa mga pinagsasabi.
I really didnt mean it. Your a great person and you know that. i was just hurt and angry although i am still angry and hurting. I'm in the process of moving on. 
I would like to thank you for offering your space. and trying your best na pilitin akong mahalin at bigyan ng space jan sa buhay mo. 
Hindi ko lang kasi kayang tumira dun sa apartment mo na kasama syota mo o kung ano pa mang relasyon nyo--

Mahal mo sya alam ko./ at walang makakapigil sa pagmamahal mo sa kanya/ thats why iam angry and hurting. hes everything that i am not. I tried hard surpressing my anger pero hindi ko kaya.
Thank you for giving me the opoortunity to experience what love is. what a relationship is. Akala ko never ko na tong ma eexperience.
The reason that i wrote this ay para malabas ko na yung guilt ko at magsorry sa mga masasamang sinabi ko.

You are a good person with a bigheart.
Dont ever think that your ugly because your not kaya kita minahal.

I am so sorry na everytime makikita ko picture yang pinakamamahal mong jess gumuguho mundo ko. bumabalik lahat ng galit ko. so its better to stay away from you both.

I am doing well day by day nababawasan paunti unti tong sakit ng puso ko. i know your doing well kasi ganon mo lang ako kadali i discard like always. ilang araw ko rin pinagisipan 
ang mga bagay bagay.

Alam ko kung bakit ako nasa buhay mo dati. Companion. I know everytime you look at me si jesse ang nakikita and you wish that it was him in your arms.
Well i am really wishing that things will be great for the two of you and i am hoping that he falls madly inlove with you so that youll have a happy ending.

Dont worry i have erased all your numbers and hindi na kita mgugulo o maabala pa. Just wrote this letter para somewhat my closure. eto na final part.

i dont ever wanna bother you again/ if you really did care for me in the past at para sa pinagsamahan natin/ kindly block my facebook incase i go crazy again and say stupid things.

thank you and wishing you guys all the best.

did you give enough love ( 1992 )

water from the moon ( 1992 )

the last to know ( Unison 1990 )

basura ka

You are the most Arrogant, selfish, heartless, insensitive person that I ever met.
Magkatulo sana kayong dalawa sagad sa impyerno kalandian nyong dalawa. You both dont deserve
to be happy at sana masira yang relasyon nyo. Mga katulad nyong mga hayop ay di dapat minamahal.
Napaka selfish mo. Wala kang pakilam na nakakasakit ka ng sobra na labis mo namang ikinasasaya. Tang Ina naman.

Ikaw ang may malalim na pinaghuhgugutan kaya mo ginawa lahat yung sakin.
Yung susunod mong bibiktimahin ay sana ikaw ang mabiktima. Manghihingi ako ng senyales kay Satanas
na pag dumating yung araw na yun ay bigyan nya ako ng senyales.

Wala kang karapatan manakit at manloko ng ibang tao. Nagsisimba ka pa naman tapos ganyan ang trip mo.
No wonder wala kang kaibigang totoo.

One day you will feel soo alone and in deep emotional pain.
One day maalala mo lahat ng kahayupang ginawa mo sa akin at sa ibang tao.

I hope You dont die at a very old age, alone and very lonely.

kaya ka pala blooming nung huli tayong magkita. Nakahanap na pala ng kapalit at bonga binahay pa talaga. bongga!!

Dibale ng matulog ako sa basurahan kesa makasama ka sa isang lugar. 

aaaannnnoooo?

Paghaharapin mo kami nyang boyfriend mo. Para saan? para magpaliwanag
sya na boarder lang talaga sya.O para pag awayin kami dahil maganda ka?
WTF.

Tang ina nyo mga ulol mga demonyo kayong dalawa.
Ang bababoy nyong dalawa. Lalo kana sala-ula kang hayop ka'

Wala kang karapatang gawin sakin to. Hindi kita ninakawan, inutangan, Pinagsamantalahan.
Ang kapal kapal ng mukha mo. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit pa kita minahal
8 months mokong pinagloloko, pinalagpas ko lahat ng kahayupan mo hayop at ito pa igaganti mo.

Kung nakipagbreak kanalang sana ng maayos at inamin mo na nakahanap kana ng iba.
Maiintindihan kopa.baka naging masaya pako sayo. Hindi yung gumawa kapa ng ganito para mawala ako sa
landas nyo.
Dimoba narealize ang ginawa mong pagsampal ng kababuyan mo sa mukha ko?
Bakit! 
Bakit!
Bakit!!!!!!!!!
Dikanalang nakipag break ng maayos?

Sya ang dahilan kaya di kana nakikipagsex sakin. 

Bakit mo ako binaboy ng ganito ano bang nagawa ko sayo?

AAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO??????

weight of the world

Paghaharapin mo kami nyang boyfriend mo. Para saan? para magpaliwanag
sya na border lang talaga sya.O para pag awayin kami dahil maganda ka?
WTF.

Tang ina nyo mga ulol mga demonyo kayong dalawa.
Ang bababoy nyong dalawa. Lalo kana sala-ula kang hayop ka'

Wala kang karapatang gawin sakin to. Hindi kita ninakawan, inutangan, Pinagsamantalahan.
Ang kapal kapal ng mukha mo. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit pa kita minahal
8 months mokong pinagloloko, pinalagpas ko lahat ng kahayupan mo hayop ka. ito pa igaganti mo.

Kung nakipagbreak kanalang sana ng maayos at inamin mo na nakahanap kana ng iba.
Maiintindihan kopa.baka naging masaya pako para sayo. Hindi yung gumawa kapa ng ganito para mawala ako sa
landas nyo.
Dimoba narealize ang ginawa mong pagsampal ng kababuyan mo sa mukha ko?
Bakit! 
Bakit!
Bakit!!!!!!!!!
Dikanalang nakipag break ng maayos?

Sya ang dahilan kaya di kana nakikipagsex sakin. 

Bakit mo ako binaboy ng ganito ano bang nagawa ko sayo?

- Mas matindi pa sa Cancer pinagdaraanan ko ngayon, parang sarap nalang mamatay.

thundercats tower of omens

Tower of Omens. Original price around 3000php 
                                              Sale price 500php

tapsilugan

Ang paburito nating kainan.

sapi

First time kong makasaksi ng mga sinasapian. Ang malupit pa nito ay sumasapi at nagpapalipat lipat ang masamang  ispirito sa tatlong dalaga. Pagkatapos saniban ang isa ay aalis ito at lilipat sa isa. Mahirap maipaliwanag ng mga nasaksihan ko. Ang tatlong dalaga ay magaganda, dalawa magkapatid at isa ay kamag-anak. Samantalang may isa pang kapatid ang dalawa iba naman ang sumasanig sa kanya hindi biolente.

Kakaibang karanasan. Once in a lifetime experience.

happy ending

Maski na lagi mo akong sinasaktan ay lagi parin akong bumabalik sayo.

Hangang isang araw bumigay nako. Sobra sobra na.

Nakipaghiwalay ako

Nakipag balikan ulit sayo.

Ngunit ayaw mo na. 

Nagsawa kanarin sa lahat.

Wala na talaga akong magagawa pa.

Alam ko sa sarili ko na ikaw na ang huling mamahalin ko.

Ikaw rin ang huling magmamahal sa akin.

Masaklap, masakit at mahirap man ang paghihiwalayan natin ay

Nagpapasalamat parin ako sa lahat.

Hindi ko makakalimutan ang lagi mong sinasabi sakin na ako ang

kumumpleto sayo at binigyan kita ng dereksyon.

Ngunit diko lang maintindihan kung bakit ganun mo nalang saktan ang puso ko.

Salamat sayo. Salamat sa lahat.

November 13, 2014- June 2, 2015

Ito ang love story ko. Ito ang happy ending ko.

7.2 magnitude

Mukhang mauna akong matetegi sa Lindol kesa sa sakit kong Kanser.

Napakalapit ng bahay namin sa faultline.

What to do? What to do ?

What to do?

Nakaligtas man sa mitinding baha ay may nagbabanta paring matinding panganib.

sta lucia dolores quezon

How to get there:

Take a Bus in Cubao any that will pass San Pablo Laguna.

I took Lucena Bus 102php. Cubao to San Pablo

Ask The Conductor to drop you in Biyak na bato San Pablo

Take a tricycle from Biyak na bato to Dolores/ Sta Lucia.

150-200 php ( Tricycle fare )

Going Home:

Tricycle going back to town 50php special solo trip.

From there ride a jeep going to San Pablo Laguna  18php

From San Pablo take a tricycle going to bus stop 20php.

Happy Trip!!!

I had an adventure commuting.

bagasbas

i can use somebody

Ano paba ang pwedeng mawala sa akin?

Tapos na kami ng boyfriend ko
First time kong magka relasyon ng ganito katagal.

This heartache that they call is unbearable and all I can do is pray for it to go away.

in the middle of nowhere

korean

Salamat mga Papi. Sa Korean Date!

ilog labo

11/13

11/13 Nung una tayong magkakilala. Gabi sa tapat ng isang simbahan kung saan maraming namatay noong Bagyong Ondoy. Naging tayo agad. It was too good to be true. Possible palang may magkagusto sa akin. Sinuko ko na kasi ang possibelidad na makahanap pako ng love life. It came and I really didnt expect it. Lakas kasi ng pakiramdam ko na hindi nya ako ma tritripan nung nagtagpo na kami.

3d

It was a very late celebration for our 5th month aniversary since most of this month ay nasa province ako. Kaya naman kahapon lang namin na celebrate ang  aming anniversary.

Avengers age of Ultron. Gusto nya 3d.
Bibili na kami ng Ticket:

Him: Miss dalawa 3d Avengers.
Me: Babe hindi ako pwede sa 3d isa nalang mata ko.
*Napatingin sa akin yung nagtiticket.
Him: Anong kinalaman nun kung isa nalang mata mo?

* I  explained to him.
You have to have two eyes to experience 3d otherwise sopas lang ng blurry blue and red ang makikita ko sa screen. I will never experience 3d again for as long as I live.

It was a great date. I love my partner and soon we will be celebrating our 6th month!

one eye

Akala ng iba madali mabuhay ng isa lang ang mata.

Try kaya nilang takpan yung isang mata nila ng isang buong araw.

Anong pakiramdam?

Ang hirap diba?

alapaap

philippines wins Ms. Heritage 2014

Congratulations  Odessa Mae Tadaya for winning Ms Heritage 2014.

This is the second edition of the pageant. Held in Johannesburg, South Africa. 

Number of Candidates: 42

Bonga ang Pinas sa 2014!!! We won 3 titles!!!!

Miss Earth

Mr International

& Miss Heritage

Bonga talaga ang Pinas!!!

philippines wins mr international 2014

SP02 Neil Perez is Mr. International 2014!

This is the 9th edition of the pageant held in Ansan. Korea. 

Number of candidates: 29.

Artistahin si papa! Join na showbiz!

Congratulations to us! The Philippines!!!!

the love between our stars

I would like to thank you my love, for not giving up on me.
You have no idea how blessed I am to have you in my life.

Sa huling parte ng buhay ko ay ipinagkaloob ka sa akin at ang iyong pag-mamahal.
When my time has come I will be happy because for once in my life I felt complete.

Hindi man tayo magagandang tao like what we see in the movies. You teached me one of the biggest lessons in my life that beauty is skin deep. Your love, Our love, my love is the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I love you soo much. Malapit na tayo mag 4 months babe!

wishes...

Some people wish to lose weight...

Some people wish to gain weight...

Some people wish to be beautiful...

Some people wish to be rich...

Some people wish for the latest Iphone.

... I just wish to be free of Cancer.

eternal peace

My time will come and I have to do everything to get closer to God. I want to rest knowing that I am at peace with God.

My family decided that we will no longer see the doctor. We are not millionairs. We cannot afford Pet Scan and Chemo therapy. My personal decision is go with alternative medicine. I thank Mami T for giving me advice that might help cure me. I would like to thank a Youtube Documentary- National Geographic Cancer documentary. The show gave me hope and I will follow all the tips just to keep me healthy.

As of the moment all I have is my faith and my motivation to be better ( health wise ).
I know that God will help me heal. God is always good.

chemo and I

I will undergo Chemo Therapy  but before that I would need a PET scan which would cost 75,000 php. I have no Idea where we will get the money and aside from that the Chemo might cost around a million.

I am not sure if I should continue this. My personal choice is not to go with Chemo and let nature take it course, But of course my mother will not agree on my decision.

This is my fate. My destiny and as of this moment I don't know what to do.

peace, love and understanding

twenty nine

December 29, 2014- 7am.  Ang araw na inoperahan ako.

Sa dinami dami ng araw sa loob ng isang taon. Noong isang araw ko lang nalaman na labis kong ikinagulat.
Kaarawan mo pala yun Rhegs.

Humihingi ako ng patawad sayo Rhegs sa lahat ng panlalait at pagiinsulto ko sayo. Sa lahat ng pagbaba-backstab.

Mas lalo kung naintindihan kung bakit nangyari sa akin to. Upang magising at alsin sa pagkatao ko ang pagiging mapanghusga. I have realized that I am feeding on sa mga kapintasan ng ibang tao in the past. It's like me feeding on negative energy. I am still in the process of being a better person. Bit by bit I will get there.

very rare

Above: Picture of my right eye with the tumor.

According to my doctor, my case is rare. The eye surgeon told me that dalawang beses lang sa isang taon nakaka-encounter ng kaso ko.

What makes my case even more rare is that masyado pa akong bata para dito. I'm only 33. Ang mga nagkakaroon nito ay mga senior citizens.

horse

I am a collector of horses. I am forever fascinated with the animal. I have several horse things.
Even my keychain is a horse ( souvenir ko sa Baguio ). I am not born under the year of the horse just to make things clear.

Yung tita na kasama ko sa ospital nung na confirm ang sakit ko at kakailanganing tangalin ang isa sa mata ko ay ipinanganak sa year of the horse (1978). Nagkataon rin na Kabayo ang bansag sa X-husband nya.

Noong isa sa mga training ko may activity kami. Kung magiging isang hayop ka ano ito? Syempre kabayo ang isinagot ko dahil yun ang nasa isip ko noong mga panahong iyon. Maganda ang naging definition nung trainer ko noong time na iyon which is; Bold and Beautiful daw ang meaning. Which is yoon nga ang nararamdaman ko noong time na yun.

Ngunit ang pinaka malupit sa lahat ay sa taon pala ng kabayo ako matatangalan ng isang mata.

What a coincidence. Ganoon paman hindi parin mawawala ang hilig ko sa kabayo. Hindi ko lang naisip dati na magiging isang mahalang simbolo sa buhay ko ang hayop na ito.

Eto ang link ng blog ko:

http://daniel-wildwildhorses.blogspot.com/

faith

Nagpunta ako sa mall kanina. Mag-isa. Kumain, Tumambay sa food-court, namili at naglakad ng naglakad hangang mapagod at hinintay ko rin mag bukas ang shop na binibilhan ko ng Magic cards. Nagsasanay ako mag function araw araw, tunay na mahirap ang isa nalang ang mata. 

Look what I found sa Bookstore!

amazing grace ( first part )

Days from now malalaman ko na resulta ng Biopsy. It will determine if the extent of the Cancer. Kung gaano na kumalat ito or kung kumalat na ito. Wala pang makakapagsabi.

*Doctor: We really can't tell after ten years or a couple of years may Cancer ka ulit. Sa ngayon we have to determine the extent of your Cancer. Maaring may mga Cancer cells na nakapuslit at pupunta sa ibang parte ng katawan mo. 

*Me in my mind: Magka-Cancer na ano man sa parte ng katawan ko wag lang yung isang natitirang mata ko.

All I can do is pray as of this point of my life. But no matter what the outcome is. Ready na ako. Natangap ko na kung ano man ang magiging resulta. Pero kung madadamay pa yung isang natitirang mata ko. I will not continue my medication and let Cancer spread as I told my family. That would be my choice.

Always pray. God is good.

we're a miracle

" May Cancer ako. Tatangalin nila isa sa mata ko this month. You decide now if you will stay. Whatever your decision will be I will accept. I will understand. I Understand. "

I told him through Text a couple of days before our 1st month anniversary.

" I am angry that you are pushing me away. It doesn't matter if you only have one eye. Mahal na mahal kita. "

I never really believe that true love or a love this strong will come into my life. I know that God gave me him at my most crucial part of my life. He's been a big help. At sa lahat ng napatunayan nya sa akin over a short period of time ay hinding hindi ko siya ipagpapalit at habang buhay na mamahalin, anuman ang mangyari.

Love is a miracle that we experience everyday.

waking up with one eye

I woke up with one eye. Finally it's done. The removal of my Cancer infested right eye ( Ocular Melanoma ) It's been almost a month since I was diagnosed. There are times that I thought I'm going crazy but eventually I got stronger and accepted the fact that the removal of my right eye is for my own good. I am already prepared.

During the process of accepting my situation ay nag-practice nako maglakad at mag-function nang isang mata lang ang gamit. Of course I have to cover my right eye during practice, It's almost blind anyway. It is depressing to think that you will wake up everyday with only one eye. It still is. But eventually I know that masasanay at matatangap ko rin ng lubusan. One eye is of course a blessing kesa totally mabulag ng lubusan.

A friend told me over the phone the night before the operation. " Ang tapang mo naman natangap mo na at ready kana sa kung ano paman ang mangyayari. "

Well it does not end here. In matter of days ay doon ko palang malalaman if I would need Chemotherapy o further operation to remove the remaining Cancer if there is. All I can do as of this moment is pray.

Upon replacing my eye bandage I requested to see what my eye looked like. My Aunt took a picture.