forgiveness

My father and I, we argue a lot. But I love him and He cares for me, I can feel and see that, Our argument usually about his indulgence in alcohol. I remember vividly that I once called him "Alcoholic" in front of his drinking buddies during one of his drinking session. I have very sharp tongue when provoked and irritated. I can be extremely provoking at my worst. At that particular moment I grew tired of him, When hes in his drunk mode he goes crazy and curse/shouts at anyone he lays eyes on, often causing scandal in our neighborhood. My father is notorious in our community and I hate him for that. Whats really odd is he can't do that to us, his children, because hes aware that we would fight back. Well I proudly inherited this "War freak personality". I can proudly say that I am slowly evolving into a peaceful person. Day by day I'm learning to grow numb to such eye sore activities of his. No matter what conflict I have with my father, I can feel that he loves us and deeply care for us, After all we are his own flesh and blood. He often brag about us during his drunken moments with his buddies. He often brag that all of us were achievers, intelligent and hardworking, that's enough for me to forget and forgive his shortcomings. Misunderstanding within family members is normal, we just have to learn accept imperfection, whats important is we see love underneath the thick layer of conflict.


In my yearbook in college, I have dedicated my hard earned diploma to him. Although he never got the chance see my yearbook. I quoted: "Para sayo to Pa"